Remember this post I did on our home? Well today was the beginning of the end. We signed papers to sell our lovely home of seven years of memories. We will move within ten days.
I am grieved. I know it is practical and reasonable and the best thing to do. But I am sad. I was fine throughout the signing, being gracious and kind and sharing moments with the other mom. Then we finished and I just Had. To. Get. Out. Of. There. As in NOW!
So I made it to the car before I began weeping. It has been a weepy sort of day. Sometimes this call to follow and trust God feels like too much.
But it is not too much. It is nowhere close. I come to the end of Job in my heart and say with him,
2 “I know that you can do all things;
no purpose of yours can be thwarted.
3 You asked, ‘Who is this that obscures my plans without knowledge?’
Surely I spoke of things I did not understand,
things too wonderful for me to know.
4 “You said, ‘Listen now, and I will speak;
I will question you,
and you shall answer me.’
5 My ears had heard of you
but now my eyes have seen you.
6 Therefore I despise myself
and repent in dust and ashes.” Job 42:2-6
I surrender today. I surrender to Your wisdom. I surrender to Your best plan. I surrender to Your heart. I surrender to your goodness. I surrender to this ending I can see.
I will see the beginning in Your time.
Grateful for the assurance,