I opened my eyes, sat up in my bed and opened up my devotional book. This is what I read (excerpt from Jesus Calling by Sarah Young):
DRAW NEAR TO ME with a thankful heart, aware that your cup is overflowing with blessings. Gratitude enables you to perceive Me more clearly and to rejoice in our Love-relationship. Nothing can separate you from My loving Presence! That is the basis of your security. Whenever you start to feel anxious, remind yourself that your security rest in Me alone, and I am totally trustworthy.
You will never be in control of your life circumstances, but you can relax and trust in My control. Instead of striving for a predictable, safe lifestyle, seek to know Me in greater depth and breadth. I long to make your life a glorious adventure, but you must stop clinging to old ways. I am always doing something new within My beloved ones. Be on the lookout for all that I have prepared for you.
Being grateful brings me more clarity about Christ. WOW! When I focus on the things that I am grateful for and not focusing on the negative I feel Christ’s love and peace. Easier said than done, I know. Every time I spend time in God’s Word I feel gratitude and I feel secure and loved.
My security is knowing that nothing I do, nothing I say, can separate me from Christ’s love for me. WOW! He loves me no matter what… amazing and humbling.
Christ is trustworthy at all times. WOW! That is hard to grasp, because most of us in our lives at one time or another has been disappointed by someone not being trustworthy so we are scared to fully trust.
Even though I try to have control in my life circumstances or think I have control, I DO NOT! Only Christ is in control of my life. Christ wants me to rely and trust in Him instead of things. He has our best interests at heart. He yearns for us to spend time with Him and read His Word. He wants our focus to be on Him instead of worrying about our life here on earth.
As a parent of a child with unique needs these words are so comforting and encouraging. God is there for me no matter what. He is open 7 days a week, 24 hours a day. He is better than a drive through and there is never any waiting for Him to listen.
He hears my cries when my son is screaming and I don’t know what is wrong.
He hears my cries when financially I am not sure how bills will get paid.
He hears my cries when other people judge my parenting skills.
He hears me when I thank him for each new day.
HE HEARS ME!
HE LOVES ME!
Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart; and You shall find rest for your souls.