I know you have been there. I have been there too. It is part of this journey we are walking. Part of the journey we don’t often discuss but feel deeply at times.
Only those fellow travelers who live with chronic disability or illness are likely to understand. But we are those people and we understand.
For today, I am not there. I thank God for that. But I have been there before and except for God’s grace I will be there again.
If you are there today, I wanted to reach out and give you a cyber hug.
God sees you. He sees the service you provide to your family every day. He knows the daily dying to self required when living in a family touched by disability. He knows you are weary and worn. He knows the hours you work doing countless unseen things to meet your family’s needs. He knows the nights you lie awake and pray for your family and the many things that are not as you wish they were. He is God, yes, but he was fully man, a man of sorrows and acquainted with grief.
As we reflect on the cross, I am moved to consider Christ who prayed in Gethsemane for God to remove the cup of suffering but then prayed, “not my will but thine be done.”
This is the most godly prayer we can pray when we are in that dark and weary place — oh God, can you relieve me of this? But not my will but Thine be done.
And in those weary, overwhelmed moments, remember this: “A bruised reed He will not break And a dimly burning wick He will not extinguish; He will faithfully bring forth justice.” Isaiah 42:3
I am praying for the weary of heart today. I pray God will reach down in a personal and intimate way and encourage you. I pray He will intervene in a way that reminds you He sees you, knows you, loves you.
I am reminded of this lovely song by Twila Paris. I hope it encourages you today.