Then Moses summoned Joshua and said to him in the sight of all Israel, “Be strong and courageous, for you shall go with this people into the land that the Lord has sworn to their fathers to give them, and you shall put them in possession of it. It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.” (Deuteronomy 31:7-8) I … [Read more...]
On Labor and Letting Go
It has been over two weeks since I delivered my firstborn. No, this delivery did not come after 24 hours of labor. On the contrary, it came after 18 years. We delivered him to college and drove away. 14 hours away, to be precise. The drive home was remarkably quiet. And reflective. I haven’t written about this yet because I have been processing this whole transition. This is huge. We are so … [Read more...]
Sleeping With Your Makeup On
I slept with my makeup on last night, breaking all the good hygiene rules. O.k., for those who do this all the time, my apologies. But I literally cannot ever remember doing it. Ever. Not in my teens, my college days, the four years of law school while working full time, the early mothering period with two toddlers, the chaos after our son’s diagnosis… never. I slept with my makeup on … [Read more...]
Your Past Does Not Determine Your Destination
The other day I was looking at old videos of when our son Connor was almost one in a half years old. Connor was smiling at us, laughing, with full eye contact like a typical child. When I would say something to him he would automatically respond. In the video I saw him playing with his mom and other kids who came over to the house without any hesitation. Today, it's a bit hard for me to watch … [Read more...]
When You Realize You Need Closure
It's not been a typical elementary school era with my oldest. But then, you probably understand that. You're here. We braved kindergarten, making friends, navigating the cafeteria, and learning to read. We managed her first psychiatrist appointment, diagnosis of bipolar w/ADHD on top of her RAD, and discovered this thing called an IEP meeting. Since second grade we've requested, evaluated, and … [Read more...]
Feeling Groovy
Yes, I was born in the sixties. I was in first grade (1966) when Simon and Garfunkel's hit "Feeling Groovy" arrived in record stores on their Parsley, Sage, Rosemary and Thyme album. Little did I know how appropriate those words "feeling groovy" would be to my life nearly 50 years later. Not because I'm skipping around my back yard picking poppies and wearing organic cotton tunics (smile)… but … [Read more...]