Pumping quickly became a time where I allowed for my emotions to surface. Eight times a day I was attached to my own machine, unable to move, and able to wallow in my sadness. Many times, while milk poured, so did my tears. At times, I felt as if I was shaking my fist at God, asking Him “Why?” I had given Him my life; I had served Him faithfully; so why had He given me this child? Why had He … [Read more...]
Peaches of Promise
Do you ever doubt yourself as a parent of a child with special needs? Ever feel like a failure as a spouse? Wonder why you can’t get it right more often with your friends? Feel like you’re missing the mark as a follower of Jesus? I do. Not every day. But often enough. I want to be the best mom, most loving wife, true-blue friend, and role-model Christian. Instead, I find myself losing my … [Read more...]
Sonic Boom!
"Want to go to Sonic, Mom?" Sounds like an innocuous enough question don't you think? But at our house, it has a deeper meaning. The question is usually asked as we're driving by the local Sonic on our way to some activity. And it's always asked by my younger son, Tim, with a wry smile and a glint in his eye. The Sonic Boom episode happened on one of our (many) trips back from Maine. Almost home … [Read more...]
“I Don’t Know How You Do It!”
Face it. We parents of children with special needs could be independently wealthy if we had a dollar for every silly remark we hear from others. Comments range from well-intentioned and misinformed to downright rude. But after any length of time, every parent raising a child with unique abilities will inevitably hear, “I don’t know how you do it!” I’m never certain how to take that comment. … [Read more...]
Celebration!
Joel loves to dance. He’s a study in joy on the dance floor—arms flailing, feet shuffling, eyes shining. Joy bubbles up in my veins as I watch him, inviting me to get up and do my own celebratory dance. I was shocked when Joel was too agitated and anxious to enjoy the last monthly dance held at his home, Safe Haven Farms. He walked into the brightly decorated multi-purpose room where music was … [Read more...]
YOU WERE CHOSEN
Colossians 2:12 And so, as those who have been chosen of God, holy and beloved, put on a heart of compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience. Did you know you were chosen? Did you know God picked you out specifically to be your child’s parent? Did you know God chose you to receive Eternal Life, Everlasting Life? Did you know God sacrificed his own son for you to live … [Read more...]