Call to me and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things which you do not know. Jeremiah 33:3 Sometimes we say, "Why me Lord?" When we struggle we may question many things. With our children with various challenges coming at them daily you may have asked yourself, "Why my child Lord?" I am going to let out a little secret here ... I am nearing 50 in the next several … [Read more...]
The Googolplex of Disability, or, How Many Times I Have to Repeat Myself
I’m going to be honest. I took high school calculus because my best friend was taking it, and I needed to prove I was as smart as she was. I was very insecure, and what’s worse, I hated math. But I did get something good from all those numbers: a B- and a neat little tidbit: A “googol” is 10 to the power of 100. The “googolplex” is significantly larger: 10 to the power of a googol - 10googol, or … [Read more...]
Searching for an Oasis of Peace
A few nights ago, my father came over for dinner. Even though we have far too much on plate on any given day, we’re the only family who lives close-by so we try to spend time with him at least once a week, which just seems like the right thing to do since he is 99. As I sat down to a slice of Costco pizza (not a gourmet feast by any stretch), I yawned quite forcefully. My father innocently asked … [Read more...]
Joy in the Mundane
A friend asked me how my family was doing. I said all was status quo, nothing exciting, no ups, no downs. We haven't had any bad days or really exciting things to report. Today was just ... today. Sounds kind of boring to the outsider. But actually, we have so much joy in the mundane. There was a time you would find us at the soccer fields with one of our boys. Occasionally, it could feel like … [Read more...]
Mom’s Worst Critic
Have you heard her sneering, nasty thoughts? “Can’t get it together!” “Doesn’t do enough for her child!” “Babying him!” “Gosh, no one else complains at the school like that!” “So demanding! So chaotic! What a mess!” “If only those signs weren't missed, there might be a better outcome.” “Oh, my goodness! Should have caught that problem much sooner... Missed some important opportunities... … [Read more...]
His Last Thought Was Of You
He was the last thought I had before I left. All the preparation, all the plans, and all the instructions—everything had been leading to this moment. I kept thinking of all the “what-ifs’” and running them through my mind over and over. Above all else, while getting ready to leave on my extended trip, I wanted to make sure all the preparations were in place. Right before I … [Read more...]